A Plain View
Thursday, February 8th was supposed to be another day of awesomeness. I had an excellent Workforce crew that I knew would get after it. If you didn’t know, for the last 3 months, we have been building our newest program, the Workforce. This program hires folks experiencing homelessness to pick up litter around town. The city hooked us up with some seed money and A Place at the Table helps us find employees. It has been a truly rewarding experience for everyone involved. To know these men that participate (it's only been men thus far, not by design) is to understand that there are layers to homelessness. It's not always drug addiction or alcoholism. Sometimes it's a couple bad breaks or maybe 1 regretful decision.
I vibe with these dudes. They are just dudes. Mostly from the sticks of NC or the NY/NJ area. I listen to their stories and just want to help. Sure, the $72 they earn, and I am fortunate to give them is cool, but I really want to get them back on their feet.
I listen to the stories about being in a shelter. Worrying if you’ll have your belongings the next morning. Or if someone high and not in their right mind is going to choose you to be the one to fu… bother that night. The infrequency of the shower. The overcrowdedness. The differences between the man’s side and the woman’s side. The want, desire and yearning for just some peace and quiet.
Then I hear about the nights that they get a hotel room. And the levels to that. Is this a night for a roach infested room with no wi-fi or is this the night I get a clean room, with a couch, and hot water, AND CABLE. I asked them, how often do you get a room, and the answer was “the days we get to work with you”. That one hit me in the feels.
I’ve been working on growing this program because it is needed in so many ways. For the people, for the environment, for the city. But money is not easy to come by and a large sum of it is even more difficult. But we won’t give up.
Back to February 8th. We were off New Bern Ave which if you know you know. I’ve said since day one, this organization could be The Great New Bern Avenue Cleanup and we would ALWAYS have something to do. But off New Bern Ave is Plainview. (exhale) We got an email from a resident requesting help in the area. It's one of the many emails I’ve received asking for help. It's hard to keep up.
But back to the story, I have been cocky lately. Very cocky. If you follow us on social media, you’ve seen our last few cleanups. How is a man to remain humble when we’ve done what we’ve done? So I guess I had this coming.
Plainview and Hillcrest were the ask. And the moment we got there I was defeated. This is not a 5 person job. This may not be a Raleigh Cleanup job. Because the trash was one thing but the despair is what I couldn’t handle.
Have you seen the Walking Dead? It only aired for 20 years with 3 spinoffs. But that's what Plainview felt like. Lifeless bodies. With no purpose or ambition. Nowhere to go or be. To just find the next hit. It affected me more than I was prepared for. And the litter that just went on and on for days. That surrounded the people standing out there. Just living in it. Not bothered by it.
To know me, is to know I was hurt I couldn’t leave the place spick and span. But even more is that I can’t help the people standing out there. Doing nothing. Disconnected from the world. Living in litter.
But I know I can only do what I can do as it's hard enough to keep myself together, Elmo. But my responsibility is to my volunteers, our Workforce crew and our community. I can’t help everybody. I can’t empathize with everybody. I can do what I can do. The best that I can do it.
I guess we all just have to find our niche and do what we can. Knowing I’m doing that makes me feel a little better. But don’t trip, I’m going to go back and clean up Plainview. When, IDK. How… together. - Preston
